NDE's

Lately I've been getting into taboo, spiritual, paranormal stuff, but it interests me so much to research on such things. As I contemplate all of the knowledge that's racing through my head, I piece together bit by bit the things that has been happening to this earth along with things that have been reported by NDE'rs. Ok, let's start.

(Just putting my two cents)

For those that aren't familiar with NDE's, it's an acronym that stands for Near Death Experiences. What intruiges me so much about this topic is the fact that there are so many unexplained cases of such phenomenon. Many skeptics have come up with theories, such as lack of oxygen in the brain, or a major release of Dimethyltryptamine or DMT in the brain. But, such theories do no justice in dismissing NDE's as the mere death process of the brain. For instance, when DMT is used in an awakened state, people report seeing geometric patterns, and although people do report having this sense of "reality" that is "more real than our own", the visual effects of DMT simply do not match up to Near Death Experience recollections.
Lack of oxygen in the brain just doesn't make sense. If hallucinations are created when the brain is dying, then the recollections wouldn't be as profound and as spiritual as an NDE. Try to compare an experience caused by hallucination, to an experience caused by a NDE. There's clearly a big difference.

It's just very difficult to imagine that people that have reportedly had such similar experiences, such as being in a room in spirit for and recollecting events that have happened while they were out of their body; A tunnel of light in which they connected with pure light. They can't be all be wrong or just a hallucination or trip occurring in their brain.

Alfy and the Meaning of Life.

My dog is indeed my best friend. Just look at how cute he is.

But anyway back to the topic, Alfy made me realize something the other day. I never really grasped the significance of life and what it's purpose is. I always thought that all the bad events that you see all over the news today is further proof that life is just an accident with defects and flaws. But then my therapist asked me to imagine the perfect world. I said "A world without hate, a world full of love." She then pointed out, "If a world did not have hate, how would we determine what is good or not? How would we determine what is right or wrong." I couldn't contradict her, she was right. Perhaps the bad things serve a purpose, a reminder that things need to change, to stop, and to be prevented. My dog further reminded me of this. I love my dog, and I know that he understands me when I ask him, "You wanna go pee?" lol. But the point is, if there is purpose, there's a plan, and if there's a plan, there's a mastermind behind it. Thus, God exists. I believe this now. As I am agnostic, my beliefs are flexible and can bend depending on how I view theism and atheism. But to me, God is more than what religion paints it out to be. God is not just Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Pagan, or any other religion; but is more than we can possibly comprehend. I would get more into the spirit stuff, but I'll leave that for my next entry. 'Till then.

Euphoria

So I get this feeling today as I walk my dog. It's a comfortable, brisk evening, and the sky is a symphony of colors. And for some reason I get this feeling of goodness in me, yeah, goodness. It's a feeling that was accompanied by a scent of spring in the air. It's kind of like the mix of flowers, plants, and fresh clean clothes mixed together. I don't know why, but these feelings make me feel like everything is going to be alright. As I contemplate this, I'm humored as to why exactly I feel like this. But it's this feeling, the feeling of spring that gets me all mushy and feel-good every year. I don't know why, I guess it's because I'm a spring baby, or I'm a "feely" person, I dunno. But it made me feel good.

2012

There's certain different theories as to what awaits us in 2012. This year is so well known to many people, and obviously we're nowhere near it. So why is it so infamous?

2012 is a year of great importance to several different cultures; particularly the Mayans, who resided in Modern day Mexico and parts of Central America. The Mayans were a vastly astronomically and mathematically advanced culture; which perplexes most researchers to this day as to how such a primitive civilization had such advanced knowledge of the stars along with the rest of the universe. Let's put into perspective as to how advanced the Mayan civilization was:

The Mayan Calendar needs to be changed by one day in the next 250,000 years (Don't hold this out on me guys, I forgot exactly how many years exactly).

There are several different theories out there for the year 2012, particularly December 23. One theory suggests a planet that travels on an elliptical orbit is going to come to wreak havoc on our planet by using it's gravitational force to alter the earth's climate. Another suggests a cataclysmic event like a meteor destroying the planet. Another suggests great enlightment and a step up towards consciousness. Another theory suggests that at last Extraterrestrials will make themselves known unto mankind. Another suggests a Pole Shift that will alter the earth's movement or something like that. And another says that nothing will happen at all.

Then there's the people that counter the entire thing. Theories abound the internet proclaiming that the Mayan prophecy of 2012 is nothing more than a ploy for the NWO. A way to distract the minds of people to do absolutely nothing while this entire planet is being manipulated into thinking that everything is going to be alright in the end; While the NWO plots it's plans as to how they're going to control the entire world by, yep you guessed it, 2012.

Personally, I do believe the entire world is being controlled by evil people who are ruining this entire planet. This should most definitely be obvious to anyone and everyone. But the point is, there's tons of theories out there as to what will happen; but who's to believe what is truth and what is complete and utter bull?

A recent report in South Africa gave me chills the other day. The report had several small children out of about 40ish that literally saw ET. Each child described the same beings, most of them drew spaceships that were almost identical. It was a bit creepy, but I knew that all these children wouldn't be so serious about something that is basically taboo in South Africa. The children all had similar, dire messages. They said that something is going to happen if we get too technologically advanced. Here's the link and you be the judge:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ctimRp7VKU4&feature=related

Perhaps all these theories are connected to a bigger purpose. Perhaps all these things will happen, perhaps not. I'm not entirely sure exactly what will happen in 2012, but one thing's for certain; it's going to be big and will probably change humankind forever.

Zoo

Oh man, Saturday was so much fun. I went to the zoo with my dad; And even though it was cold as anything, I enjoyed watching all the monkeys and tigers. But the all-time best animal ever is: The Otter. Yep, I love otters, they're like the clowns of the animal kingdom; And I saw them in all their silliness that day. So damn adorable. So yeah, I used that time to bond with my dad, talked about the good ol' days, and then stopped by Tomlinson's to grab a bite to eat. Perfect day? So far. Then later on in the day, I visited some family members that I haven't seen in a long time, and cousins that I didn't recognize at all (Yep, literally didn't know them lol). Anyway, went with my cousins to grab another bite to eat, only this time is was in a pizza parlor on Madison Ave. We hung out and had a good time. I wanted to take pictures of my family, but at the last minute the camera wasn't working. And get this, later on in the night after I left, the camera was working again. But I overall had a good day. Perfect day? Not so much. Happy day? You bet it was :-)

Perfect Friend

So yesterday in therapy, the therapist spoke to all us women about friendship. We spoke of how most of us imagine the perfect friendship or the perfect relationship, when in reality that is not so. We all had a piece of paper and described what our ideal friendship would be; All of us had radical ideas of the perfect friendship. As we read our responses, we all realized that our expectations were way out there. No one is perfect, so why is it that we have to limit ourselves to expectations that are unreal? There are good people out there despite their flaws; As we are.

But, there's another side to this predicament. Perhaps perfection has nothing to do with the best attitude or the kindest, sweetest person on the planet. Perhaps perfection is admitting to your faults and still being a kind, sweet person.

I can see my ideal friendship in that way, I'm not asking for someone that will never be mad at me (God knows that's almost impossible in my case), I'm asking for someone that will be there for me even if they're pissed. I want a friend that will empower me, be honest with me, care about me even when the going gets tough. I want a friend who will have me in a special part of their lives; comfort me when I'm sad. I want a friend that knows how to apologize if they ever hurt my feelings. I want a friend that can be open with me about their life. And I'm sure I will give that person vice versa in return.

That is an ideal friendship, heck even an ideal relationship; Someone that sticks with you through the good and the bad; And who no matter what happens, will never leave your side.

This is a true friend.

Feel Good Pill

So this past week I had an amazing experience in therapy and the people are awesome. I feel that I can open up to these people honestly and share my feelings without worrying about anyone judging me. We meet for three hours, and every hour is separated into different sessions with different therapists. One sessions that I especially took a liking to was the Mind, Body and Spirit. It's an art therapy session in which I along with the other women in my group express ourselves and let out our "inner demons" through creativity. Although this week we expressed ourselves with speech rather than art, It was promised that next week we'll get started on our arts and crafts rendevous. So anyway, I was prescribed a medication called Lamictal; and I have to admit, I'm starting to feel the effects of the medicine already. My attitude towards everything is changing little by little, I feel a bit more social, and things are just basically looking good to me. I feel better than I have in a very long time. I nicknamed my medicine the "Feel Good Pill", because that's exactly what it does lol. I feel good, and I'm sure now that I'm on the road to recovery.